Crossing that line...and then some.

Been back and forth… back and forth on whether I should cross the line… cross the line from simple to complicated… that line that takes you places you sometimes just do not want to go… Well, I’m there… It’s been a somewhat different week... Contemplating about what my life currently is and whether it needs to change… This void eats at my soul… the very inner part of my soul that tells me that something is just…off… that something is missing… Can’t pinpoint it… or can I? Is it the mundane normalcy of every day life that the Aries needs to detach from? Is it the crave for something so unattainable yet when attained becomes mundane? Or is it just me? Passion can be your worst enemy, and right now, it’s my fucking war… battling between what is and what can be…. Lusting after something yet no clue what…

I have to thank you for making me think again… for allowing me to be me one way or the other… and more so, for allowing my passion to play with not only itsself but you…How can a war be playful? Fucking ironic...

The saying, “You always want what you can’t have” is an understatement by any stretch of the imagination. It should be changed to “You always want what does not and will never exist…” The mind imagines things that seem so perfect… but what exactly is perfection? An idealization of something, someone, somewhere. Once we attain the idea of perfection we have always wanted (if that's humanely possible), it becomes so…normal, imperfect… The vicious cycle of the fucking mind…

I’ve been mentioning the mind… What about its yang, the heart? It’s a battle that can’t be won, which is maybe why I’m so drawn to it…

Cheers….