Dreams

I've been having very vivid dreams lately... The kind where you wake up and can't exactly remember the context except for the fact that you had them. You remember the people involved, their faces, the location where they took place... but you can't remember any of the specific details, except for the feeling they leave behind....

Are dreams truly an extension of reality? If so, I am truly fucked up... LOL... What is it that they're trying to tell me (if anything at all)? Are they punishing me for my wrong-doings? I talk about my dreams as if 'they' are a kind of force, when in reality, it's simply my mind punishing me... I am punishing myself because of my actions these past several months, and it's all coming out when I sleep. No wonder I'm constantly drained with thought-provoking images that come up during a time when one's mind is supposed to be resting... They say time is a healer... and when I use "they", I'm talking about people and their experiences, publications and their logic.... I just wonder if I'm ever going to truly heal from this.... My rational tells me I will, but my unwanted thoughts, day and night, cause doubt...

We'll see (and when I say 'we', I refer to my mind, heart, and body).... I guess everything comes down to time - its endless possibilities, and the lack there of...

Progress...

Preparing for an imminent but only possible career progression... Been working towards it since the start, and can only hope that my efforts pull through.... I helped create it, and suggested that it open up to any interested parties for the sake of fairness... Deep inside, I know I deserve it and have already stepped into the role out of pure initiative, but nothing is a guarantee...

Two internal interviews coming up tomorrow and two more over the next couple of weeks.

I really want this, and will be very disappointed in no one but myself I don't get there...